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2010-12-16T03:15:00.002+08:00

Been having lots of question in my head.
What will i be like when i am 30?
What would my 10 year old self say to me now?
What would happen to me if i had chose differently?
All the doings of too much excess time on hand..

2 more weeks and i am a step closer to having a big 2 infront of my age..
Its kinda scary thinking about the future..
10 years down the road at 30 what will i be like?
I do not have the slightest clue..
Guess all i can do is try my best and pray that my current self would not be disappointed.

Am i happy with myself at the last few weeks of being 18? well i guess not..
Looking back i made a lot of decisions that i regret,
some more than others,
some of which i might never get over.
However i take comfort in having made an improvement over the year 2010.
I guess my 10 year old self would also be disappointed,
being unable to chase a dream which i had so many opportunity to have a taste of.
My lack of confidence crushed that dream and locked it away.

What would happen if i had chose differently?
I would never know would i.
And my greatest regret would just have to be aching memories that i would wish i could change.

2010-12-12T22:45:00.002+08:00

My body clock is screwed and it is practically screwed a 180 degrees.

Darling had his wisdom tooth pulled out and has been sick for the whole entire week.
He has to pratically survive on porridge and no cold drinks! Not even cold water. If this is what i have to sacrific to get my wisdom tooth yanked out of my mouth then i would have to say NO THANKS! Although the fact that i might slim down a little is kinda tempting..

The two damn bloody reasons i am pratically stuck at home and turning fairer by the day
which ain't such a bad thing if i am not getting fatter at the same time..

2010-12-07T00:20:00.002+08:00

the start of the holidays!
some items on the list to buy before classes start again in a months time.
1) specs
2)contacts
3)clothes ;D
4)a new phone
i wonder if they still have the iphone4 instock for singtel
seriously getting very fed up with starhub and their "its coming soon" brush off
starhub's service is getting worst by the day!
enough of getting pissed
should really enjoy my holidays before the school drops the bomb on me..
basically my results, i can so predict i so would not do well..
hopefully some miracle would happen and at least not let me flunk!

2010-11-11T03:01:00.000+08:00

Crossing the days off my calendar! I simply cant wait for the December holidays, although i currently can't think of what i am gonna do. What the heck who cares i am gonna get enough of my beauty sleep. Its like 3am now and should seriously get to bed, that is if my major headache allows me to D;!

P.S YSYT is scared of the pain when threading! ;D

she is so gonna kill me when she sees this if she ever would ;X

2010-11-09T00:11:00.000+08:00

Have not been having much time to blog recently, due to all the rushed assignemnt datelines. When i am finally done with all the assignements, there is still the exams which are up in 2 weeks plus? Basically i have to bury myself in notes and questions cause i am so lost!!! Half the time i am never mentally in class, so there is lots of catching up to do. Gonna start cramping 3 chapters in my head a day. At this rate it will be amazing if my brain is not fried by the end of the degree programme. Thats practically all that has been happening recently besides the fun i would so often over squeeze into my shecdule and neglect my assignment with. Been meeting up with Jie one a weekly basis, as for Pikey (my new nickname for bf) we do not meet up like everyday anymore. Mostly due to class shecdule difference and having our own studies to concentrate on, basically me rushing assignments, he preparing for exams. Thats all i guess? Nothing interesting. Back to burying myself in notes then..

2010-10-22T14:46:00.001+08:00

I am so not prepared this semester.
Still in the holiday mood i guess?
Need to start getting back my pace,
if not this semester is gonna be a tough one.
While actually it already is,
with me skiping OTQM every single week,
i see no reason how i could pass, that is even with going for lesson.
Why? well lets see...
I know the lecturer is useless, another use lecturer for a super theory base subject.
Worst of all his assignments are the hardest, sick bastard!
Okkies maybe the assignment ain't his fault but who cares!
Its his fault the half the class is falling asleep while the other half is either busy talking or daydreaming.

2010-08-23T14:31:00.000+08:00

We out of good will send them our copy for cross referencing like we always did.
They stab us in the back by copying our work without us knowing,
that is until we were called by the admin office saying we are accused of plagiarism.
Called in for the interview and found out they stab us in the back yet again.
Worst the interviewer was not letting us prove that the work is ours.
At the same time accuse us of collusion!
Saying then it is written in the handbook that sending over for reference is considered a crime,
however this was what was written:

4.2.2 Plagiarism / Collusion
Plagiarism is theft of intellectual property. Students are reminded that
plagiarism is a serious offence subject to the Institute’s disciplinary
procedures.
Plagiarism can mean any one of the following:
- direct copying of phrases and/or passages without a reference
and/or quotation marks;
- paraphrasing another writer’s work in your written work without
citing the reference;
- making a direct reference to an author you have not read although
you may have read about him. The correct way is to reference the
secondary source you have actually read rather than referencing the
original which you have not read;
- copying the work of another student, in part or in whole;
- handing in written work that has already been submitted for
assessment in another course.
Please note that it is also a disciplinary offence for students to allow
their work to be plagiarised by another student.

and for all i know i have been searching the web and the thing is it is always stated if the students know that their frens are copying for us it ain't the same case cause we didnt know what happen till we were told we were caught!

2010-08-09T23:01:00.000+08:00

so behind marketing assignment
really have no motivation to do anything any more
been feel rather lifeless well
wonder if i would get through this semester or not

2010-08-05T00:46:00.000+08:00

人不犯我，我不犯人；
人初犯我，我让三分；
人再犯我，我回一针；
人恒犯我，斩草除根．
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Let me rant here ;]
I HATE HR!!
I HATE HR!!
I HATE HR!!
I HATE HR!!
I HATE HR!!
I HATE HR!!
I HATE HR!!
I HATE HR!!
I HATE HR!!
1000 words! i am almost done and i only have 500
plus can feel my head spinning round

2010-08-03T23:38:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i look myself in the mirror and my mind would wonder
thinking about how much i have changed over the years.
Well for once i am not as patience as i once was
and obviously not as tolerant towards certain things.
It seems that my trust towards others is also not given easily.
I use to be able to forgive and forget,
but it seems now that the forgetting part is getting really hard.
I wonder if this is what comes with growing older,
or is it just my problem,
just a barrier i have form to protect myself.

2010-07-20T22:58:00.000+08:00

Rushing out reports gives me major headaches!
Currently having a horrible headache.
Is the marketing teacher even qualified to teach us?
Seriously she is such a bimbo,
reading off the slides like 90% of the time.
If it wasn't for my attendance i would have bunked marketing class,
stay home and study!
Worst she can't tell the difference between maximum and minimum.
Hello the instruction says a maximum of 4 pages,
NOT a minimum!
Less crapping here more crapping on the report got a minimum of 4 pages to meet thanks to her. D;

2010-07-19T19:34:00.000+08:00

Been rather distracted recently,
the reason well i have no freaking clue.
Random input: I have so put on weight!
I so have to lose weight by October!
Back on track...
Been rather absent minded too!
Due to lack of sleep?
Highly unlikely
A little out of my mind at the moment ;]

2010-07-16T05:32:00.000+08:00

Due date for HR individual assignment is like on the 17th
and i am only starting like right now!!
Which is like the day before
I am so screwed!
I don't even know how to begin D;
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To let it go or not to?
Seriously the problem ain't with me being angry anymore,
cause the fact is once i got all the suppressed emotions out,
i was feeling surprisingly calm.
The problem is if i can still trust you, if i can forget
and the answer is an obvious NO.

the pain will always outshine the happy moments
and i will never be truly erased no matter how hard you try

2010-07-12T09:23:00.001+08:00

Edvidently i am not that improtant to you i guess ;]
Then you shall not be that important to me either ;]
Came across yr previous chat logs by accident
I guess i should not be so curious as to read them
I guess my six sense was nvr wrong
I guess it was nvr me that you love it was the freedom i gave you
Was dropping you hints yeserday
but i guess you nvr got the hint ;]

dense and a pack of lies

2010-07-10T13:59:00.000+08:00

我总觉得，过度幸福的爱情都是一场骗局。
而我就活在这场骗局里。
但是，除非证据摆在眼前不然我是不会自动的走出着一场＂戏＂。
我就是那么的傻，那么的固执。
但是，请你不要把我的傻和固执当作我是无知的。

2010-06-21T17:42:00.000+08:00

o lala exams result are out
got an A for financial accounting
another A for statistic
and sadly a C+ for business communications
the C+ is sure a spoiler D;
there goes my coach wallet D;

2010-05-16T22:00:00.000+08:00

counting to the exam dates yet again
14days more
been trying my best to concentrate on studying
but it seems that my attention span is only getting shorter
i am dead meat ._.

2010-05-10T01:44:00.000+08:00

over with projects ;]
been relaxing as much as i am allowed to.
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watched ironman 2 over the weekends
feels kinda weird watching 2 when i dun even know what happened in 1
is it even linked?
not really the movie i wanted to catch
mahjong session after the movie at jevon's house
with ben and jevon
and 2 people as observers
namely baby and momo
went back to eunos and slept around 5?
been a long time since i slept so effing early
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woke up the next day at 4pm
waited for baby to cook dinner for me ;]
i am such a lucky girl ;]
off to bed now if not i will be bunking business comm. again

2010-04-26T11:40:00.000+08:00

pact datelines
exams are like 5 weeks away
totally lost in business statistic
and i really dislike the business communications lecturer
makes me feel like we are animals in a zoo or something
gonna be at baby's place
rushing out all my assignments for the next few days
wish me luck ;]!

2010-04-23T19:52:00.000+08:00

sometimes you wonder why those pains were never enough to kill you

well now is one of those times for me

sometimes you wonder why you can never forget what you want to

yet you would always forget those memories you want to keep fresh in your head.

but it is thanks to those pains that taught me lessons

lessons that i would never learn from books or classes

2010-04-12T00:02:00.000+08:00

tiring lessons from 2pm-5pm
dun get me wrong it ain't entirely the lessons that is making me so worn out

1) WHAT HAPPEN TO MY 12 HOURS OF SLEEP PER DAY..

2) my body clock is SCREWED.
waking up at earliest 5 in the morning and having the feeling of hitting the bed once again for a nap when it hits noon

3) the subjects are so dry which never fails to make my eyelids feel heavy
and by the time lessons are over
you practically see a zombie walking out of campus

4) the trip back on the MRT is like sardins in a can!
and i can never find sits why do i have to stay so far from campus D;
so i mostly end up at eunos for dinner before going home totally drain

2010-03-22T17:17:00.000+08:00

OMG OMG OMG!!!
was so nervous about the results
could not sleep till quiet late like 9 in the morning
when i practically could not open my eyes any longer
i just hit my bed and float off to lalaland
was like rejecting many calls and refusing to wake up
until the 5 pm alarm rang
and i practically jumped out of bed rushed to the lappy
and str8 to sim students portal!
what a joke!
me being worried for results for once
and after seeing my results i practically hopped around the house like mad
Business Mathematics - A
Managing People & Organization - B+
Business English - B
seems like the last week of lack of sleep paid off
dun ever tell me last min studying doesn't help
BECAUSE IT SURE DOES ;];]
off to print my results ;];]

2010-03-17T16:41:00.001+08:00

when it ain't the holidays i am always wish for it to come
when it is the holidays i would want it to end
am i weird or what..
back hurts at the moment
spend the pass few weeks at baby's place
ate huo guo
watch a movie
meet up with jie
saw jasper
then nothing more i guess
too lazy to post anyway
the lazy bug is infecting me again ;]

2010-03-03T16:26:00.000+08:00

finally MPO papers are over ;]
there goes the horror down the dumpster
even though i am still have 2 more papers to go
i am still smiling really wide now ;]
my brain feel relatively light at the moment with 5 chapters of MPO floating out ;X
off to do BM in a really happy mood *GRINS*

2010-02-27T02:08:00.000+08:00

exams exams exams
good i feel like an effing textbook at the moment..
5 more days till first paper gl to me
*prays*

2010-02-15T15:01:00.000+08:00

It ain't the best Chinese new year,but i should be lucky that it isn't the worst. Love the meekor (shanghainese rice cakes) and for those who do not know what it looks like here it is (this wasn't cook by my grandma found the picture online).

Its like everyone in the family is always building up an appetite just for the new year period. Can't really find meekor out there, so far haven seen it being serve anywhere, even it is being served i dun think i will be as nice as the ones my grandma cook. Gonna have to learn how to cook it!!! Its gonna super chaotic cause it is me who is gonna be learning after all.

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wonders "is mee kor so uncommon? Whenever i say meekor or shanghainese rice cake people would go huh!?!?"

2010-02-09T23:10:00.000+08:00

damn my fringe!!!
DAMN IT!!
i look like a bunny ==!

2010-02-09T07:59:00.000+08:00

haven had time to blog the past few days
today is no exception..
just a few lines cause i am rushing off to school
to finish up on my projects
and yay for me this is the last project i have to complete this sem
exams around the corner
gonna have to starting mugging soon!!
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i am so effing late!!!

2010-02-03T00:01:00.000+08:00

00:00
❤❤
happy 2nd month baby ;]
❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
i am sure we will enjoy more of the 3rd tgt ;]
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2010-01-30T11:46:00.000+08:00

Ok since everyone is saying cause i said that i will pay i should pay
then you should do the same as well ;]
cause you did say we will pay as well as you promise to do so
firstly paying the replacement of my dad phone that you lost
as well as for my handphone repairs cause you were the one who smashed it
you said that many times
"lend 10 next time return you"
lets see 110+80+(10 x ??) -150
o well cant remember how many times you took from me
on lend basis so how do you wan me to add in?
so shall we meet up and pay each other back ;]
i pass you your 150 you pass me my 200 plus ;]
how nice does that sound to you ;]

2010-01-30T03:18:00.000+08:00

You want to find me someday ;]
is that suppose to be a threat?
I definitely would not want to see you at all
kinda like a mood spoiler for the day ;]
Do not say you tired of asking
cause you started this
and yes i do not owe you anything
do some maths please even if you do not counting in the rest of the stuff
the phone is good enough to cover what i owe you
Lucky for you i am not chasing for the balance after deducting what i owe you ;]
so be grateful
because like i say you are the one who started this ;]
OO an answer to your question you once ask
"where is the felicia i use to know"
i do not think you know me well enough
well she has always been here
i never did change
it was you who cross the boarder
do not think you can step all over me like you did when we were together
and i would just take it crying my heart out
i would not because right now
i have no obligation to put up with neither your temper and you childishness
ANYMORE

2010-01-29T14:31:00.000+08:00

In case you don't remember it correctly i said
"i will return you how much i owe you" ;]
and by owe i mean after deducting all the negative digits you still had ;]
You say you paid for the phone repairs?
You sure you paid for it?
Do not start hallucinating please
Think back did you ask me to pay you back
and did i not lend money from my mum?
She even handed the money to you personally.
Oh and stop trying to make it sound like you spend all your savings on me.
Cause it wasn't because of me that you lend from others.
You had debts even before i was with you.
Half the time your pay went to paying off debts so please..
And yes we agreed that if you had no money you would use mine
and when i had no money i will use yours
but it was you who started asking back for the 50 bucks as well?
you are just contradicting yourself
and since you done that ain't it logical i do that as well ;]
So what you are trying to say is i should return what i lend from you when i was broke
but you don't have to return to me what you lend from me?
WOW! nice logic you have there ;]
and why didn't you rebutted about my father's phone?
i had to pay for his new phone mind you!
and calling me greedy out of no where cause you got no other insults to throw at me?
o o o i know i was being greedy by not breaking up with you earlier
sorry my mistake for being so blind ;]
or in your context greedy ;]
and for heavens sake if you want to throw insults at me do them with prove
and by prove i do not mean ranting on about how i am not paying you back your money ;]
and saying she does not bother about me
it ain't your sentence to say ;]
PS: had a hard time trying to understand your grammatical hopeless post ;]
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o do not worry i would not be hiding
and yes i will pay if i have any negative digits on yr acc ;]
i am not being proud i am just stating facts
if stating facts equals being proud
i have no idea how many proud people there are in the world right now
and may those people include researchers ;]
and do not say 150 is nothing to you
when you go saying
"i am very broke can you ask her if she can pay me a not"

2010-01-29T07:14:00.000+08:00

for starters what about the fact about my dad's handphone
remember that ;]
then how about the many times you don't have money
and used the word lend and never ever did return
and this includes that time when there was a quarrel and you can just stomp out of my house
and ltr on u-turned and called me demanding money from miie
and don't say stuff like when you broke you always take money from me
cause i know for a fact the only time i did was the that one time ;]
which you are currently screaming out saying i should pay you back
o o o and the time where by you threw my bag due to your horrible temper
and god my poor phone ;]
want me to continue?
o o o and dun read this post and go running and complaining to mc
and bothering the shit out of her.
and don't see this and start throwing out threats cause you got nothing else to say ;]
and i promise you this month i will pay you back how much i owe you
but judging by all the above do you really think i owe you anything at all ;]
if you do all i can say is as quoted by KT you are just an effing petty guy who cant stand to lose ;]

2010-01-29T01:12:00.000+08:00

Been screaming out my frustrations on plurk and twitter..
lets be fair that girl ain't that horrible,
at least she can do work ;]
BUT lets just say other than that if your not rich
or should i say if she does not find you rich enough,
here comes her i am so much better than you,
with the full blast of her because you are not loaded i look down on you attitude.
At least i got a snap at her today ;]
And man i tell you that felt so damn good ;]
maybe i should snap back at her more often
see if she would still have the I am more important thinking ;]
AND it ain't our fault that you guys push off yr work till the last min
so dun expect us to compromise
when we already did.

2010-01-25T22:20:00.000+08:00

我感覺我的世界在圍繞著你旋轉，
自己沒辦法控制所發生的一切。
我為何那麼的被你吸引著，
這問題我自己也沒法回答，
隻知道應為你我會變的瘋狂，
會不知情的失去立志...

2010-01-25T21:49:00.000+08:00

heard something from the radio found it funny..
and i swear the reply was just classic ;X
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There was a guy who wasn't much of a looker.
He had fallen in love with a lady who was gorgeous.
One day he bought a bouquet of flowers,
kneel down in front of her asking her to be his.
The girl rejected him for what reason i have no idea.
The guy then asked :
"what do you not like about me, i promise to change."
The lady replied him :
"what do you like about me, i swear i will change."
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projects are just coming in non-stop
exams are a month away
don't think i will be able to enjoy CNY
been lacking of sleep the pass few weeks?
unable to sleep at night
and currently feeling super drained..
hopefully my stomach feels better tomorrow or i will be so behind on the module..

BABY I MISS YOU LOADS D;

been playing round the phrase an eye for an eye
i don't think it is gonna solve anything
it ain't what i want to do
but he leaves me no choice is there
when one only remembers what people owe him
and not what he owes others
what can you do about it ;]
lets just say i was blind effing blind

2010-01-20T04:43:00.000+08:00

i kept myself hidden under the blanket
i kept myself away from any possible threats
i kept the walls high
i kept the wall sturdy
i kept hoping it will never collapse
but yet it did and faster than expected
sometimes things ain't how you expect it to be
and you've gotta accept the fact that life is a bitch
but no matter how bitchy life can get
there is always some point in time
where there is someone who will lend you a hand
help you stand back up and teach you to see how great life can get
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ignore the post
i am so not mentally sane at the moment

2010-01-19T23:53:00.000+08:00

aint getting enough sleep the pass few days..
so am getting irritated rather easily at the moment..
finally done with MPO report
it practically drain me of my brain juice
and i am off to bed soon ;]
because maths just drain me of my left over brain juice.
note to self never do assignments when you are lacking of sleep
takes the life out of you

2010-01-15T08:46:00.000+08:00

giving myself a day off from school today
my stomach ain't feeling all that good..

2010-01-14T01:03:00.000+08:00

report..
exam..
NOT ENUFF TIME
I SO NEED TIME RIGHT NOW!
busy ttm..
sighs

2010-01-08T23:16:00.000+08:00

haven been getting enough sleep recently..
super drained at the moment
yet i cant get any shut eye..
what is this!

2010-01-08T00:54:00.000+08:00

the 4th day of school..
things ain't going all that bad ;]
and surprisingly i haven been like extremely late for any lectures yet
totally different feeling from poly ;]
and apparently more motivated to study due to the grading system
first report to be handed in like in 2 weeks time
hopefully i will meet the dateline?
3 hrs of school everyday
having to wake up in the early morning ain't as dreadful as i tot it will be
which leaves my afternoon free for baby..
hmm mostly sleeping and him hugging me to sleep though ;\
and my nights free for studying..
hahaha i am so loving this for now..
until all the stress kicks in when exams are near

2010-01-05T00:21:00.001+08:00

my gay bf ;\
he is trying to act shy
or is it act cute either one

2010-01-03T02:54:00.000+08:00

happy 1st month baby ;]

being with you just seem like all i need

being with you keeps me smiling

being with you keeps the worries at bay

being with you just means the world to me now & forever

its been a happy month and i know there will be many many more happy months to come

cause it is you i am with

I LOVE YOU ❤NGCHENGFENG❤

2010-01-02T00:59:00.000+08:00

currently at blogging from baby's house ;]
bk to spinning happy box ;]

2009-12-30T00:27:00.000+08:00

We can't gain if we can't let go.

There's no love without tears,

there's no happiness without sacrifice

and there is no forever without goodbyes.

okkies ignore me kinda moody at the moment ;D

2009-12-29T08:38:00.000+08:00

its like 9 in the morning!

suppose to be at campus at the moment

but apparently i am at home..

decided i was too tired to step out the house

missing baby loads D;

less than a week till lessons offically begins

ain't really looking forward to it...

so not a morning person..

of to bed again ;D

2009-12-29T00:02:00.000+08:00

sunday grandma's 80th birthday celebration

fun fun & more fun ;D

shou tau super cute

cold crab..

the sauce for the cold crab

toast to grandma ;D

this is definately the best second to the mango puree ;D

nice soup and tasteless melon

some weird dish with lots of garlic *yucks* at least to me

oops wendy was accidentally snapped ;X

me thru the wine glass

best hor fun ever ;D

the 2 naughty rascals

the cake knife looks like some baojian
cousins and spouses ;D

the adults gift to my grandma ;D

mango puree ;D

last zhi lian pic for the day ;D

and after that it was off to shopping ;D
bought 2 pairs of shoes 2 bags 5 or 6 tops and overall

2009-12-27T05:28:00.001+08:00

effing pissed at the moment

off to bed in a bad mood yay!~

2009-12-25T05:35:00.000+08:00

been spending lots and lots of time with baby ;D

wun be having much time for him after classes start

and here i am missing him ttm again!

my sweetest addiction <3

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guess giving up on the sticks ain't gonna be something impossible

haven been smoking much lately ain't tat something great ;D

2009-12-20T01:41:00.000+08:00

http://boomerchic.blogspot.com/

friends new blogshop quite a few nice clothes ;D

although i am more attracted to her heels ;X

2009-12-13T00:45:00.001+08:00

just did my nails ;D

here are the pics

2009-12-13T00:28:00.000+08:00

I LOVE BABY TTM

spill the beans feel kinda free of all secrets at the moment

yet the chills in my heart caused by the flashbacks wun go away

its like some one sprayed liquid nitrogen into the center on my heart

and this calls for extreme measures

and here is my cure

a full 173 ml of swensens peanut butter icecream

all the fats being in a rotten mood cause miie

2009-12-10T02:12:00.000+08:00

Tuesday mahjong session with Ben kueh and jaz

baby accompanied and stone the entire day just for me

time with him just seems to fly

dun like it one bit

if time could crawl when i am with him it will be better

dunno how many times i xiaoxianggong

wasn't really paying attention

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met baby at 620 and i was late as usual

Seoul Garden for dinner

with baby sis deddy afiq and 2 girls

found out something super funny thanks to deddy

had lots of laughs and i swear i am putting on weight just cause of this week

dieting starting from next week..

sis was being his usual crazy ass

which made me end up in a candid shot ..

went home after dinner

baby accompanied me home

and i accompanied him while he waited for the bus to come

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i miss you

hope the school term won't be starting too soon

or it will be lesser time for baby

2009-12-07T13:47:00.000+08:00

ain't getting enough sleep

ain't sorting out my time properly

ain't satisfied with my pathetic effort to sort out my life

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life is full of what ifs for me

but i choose never to think of the many options i could choose from

regrets to me are just a bother

a word to hold you down

yet the only regret i ever had was the choice i made for pushing you away

sometimes i would sit here wondering why

the silliest things i ever did was also for you

but i am happy for once in life i regretted

cause i learn to treasure you more ;D

the one wish i would give up a million wishes for

spells Y-O-U

but there is one single thing i can't help doing

pulling the breaks on my own emotions..

and it all comes down to one word

PATHETIC!

2009-12-04T14:57:00.000+08:00

coughing like there is no tomorrow at the moment

and woohoo...

as said by jie my voice sound like some ahgua ~.~

2009-12-03T13:43:00.000+08:00

went to catch the twilight marathon with

baby lun and von..

had to wake up super early for my paper

and i ended up like 30-45 mins late

ended up i just cook up a lie ~.~

lucky they where like nice enuff to let me sit for the paper

its like i was the last one there and first one to leave so awkward

went down to YCK to meet von..

when he called and ruin my mood ok!

train down to bishan

and i look like some insane person

screaming into the phone..

thanks man i know your reading this..

thanks a whole lot..

was like having difficult forcing my food down

氣都氣飽了

baby and lun turn up later

went for the movie

was like coughing ever few mins

and i swear i would take the back sits from now on if i ever watch a marathon again

went down suntec for dinner and home ;D

2009-11-29T02:15:00.000+08:00

been really busy with work the pass few days

and i am driven up the wall with spam calls

sighs..

what does it take for me to get it thru your thick skull

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currently have a terrible sore throat..

and burning a fever...

nice..

hope it gets better after some sleep

cause i need to be there tmr

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a promise i made to myself ;D

and i don't want to break it ;D

2009-11-26T03:12:00.001+08:00

Wednesday meetings with jie today

like rushed over to fetch her after work

and yeah i was late again~

first time i didn't lost my way from the MRT..

an effing miracle or should i say my sense of direction getting better ;D

headed over to her place

i am so in love with her mum's cooking!!!

maybe it is just cause i have to force tastless food down my throat everyday

went down to slack

and we were like super in a good mood

saw jasper when we were at 851

and found out the xiaodidi we guai lan the other time

was actually him ;X...

and those gina i see already not happy is actually him & his group of frens

OMG OMG!!! 世界好小

after that 3 of us played cards till 1.30

when i was about to leave i did something super stupid..

please keep this a secret between the 3 of us

dun ruin my image not that it is very good anyway

first time i am doing something so stupid cause of a guy..

wtf is wrong with me...

2009-11-25T02:55:00.000+08:00

nice song ;D

[S CLUB 7-HAVE YOU EVER]

Sometimes it's wrong to walk away, though you think it's over

Knowing there's so much more to say

Suddenly the moment's gone

And all your dreams are upside down

And you just wanna change the way the world goes round

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody

Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry

Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby

Have you ever felt your heart was breaking

Lookin down the road you should be taking

I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go

Can't help but think that this is wrong, we should be together

Back in your arms where I belong

Now I've finally realised it was forever that I've found

I'd give it all to change the way the world goes round

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody

Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry

Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby

Have you ever felt your heart was breaking

Lookin down the road you should be taking

I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go

I really wanna hear you say that you know just how it feels

To have it all and let it slip away, can't you see

Even though the moment's gone, I'm still holding on somehow

Wishing I could change the way the world goes round

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody

Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry (I'm sorry)

Can't you see, (ohhh) that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby

Have you ever felt your heart was breaking

Lookin down the road you should be taking

I should know, (I should know) cos I loved and lost the day I let

Yes I loved and lost the day I let

Yes I loved and lost the day I let you go

2009-11-25T00:21:00.000+08:00

I am not greedy for if there were a million wishes i could make

i would exchange them all for just this one wish i locked deep within my heart ;D

stone the entire day

thats all

still too lazy to upload pictures

off to bed if not i wun be able to pull myself to work tomorrow~

2009-11-24T01:44:00.000+08:00

okkies lets see what i have been doing for the pass few days

FIRSTLY

lau meichen's chalet

happy 21 jie!

blackjack, mahjonged and cause we felt like sleeping..

we played 4 colours didnt get whacked at all lucky~

then went off to watch the sunrise with kenneth jasper and jie

the others were like sleeping!

kenneth and jasper went off to buy food

while me and jie sat there talking and drinking

when i suddenly felt a sharp pain and started to feel like vomiting

after that only jasper came back

after watching the "sunrise"

we headed back

and i couldnt even walk straight

kneel down tried to vomit a few times but nothing came out!

i think i looked like some siao zhabor at that time

one eye grey the other black hair super messy

ya you get the picture...

then the second day her family members were there

so i practically stone the entire day

smoking was a little difficult cause it is not nice to smoke infront of the adults

when the adults left moses and ben came over

for some reason ben looks familar ignore the randomness

played mahjong

and drank

then went str8 home to bath and off to m'sia

was like sleeping the whole journey there due to the lack of sleep for the pass few days

celebrated some seinor relatives birthday

had my hair done

did some shopping

1 jeans. 2 shorts. 3 tops. 4 bras. 3 boxes of colour contacts

reached sg around 2 plus 3 in the morning

on9 for awhile before sleeping

was like super in a good mood till my mood was ruin

by that some ass who keeps calling!

and yea my mood is going down hill again at a rapid speed

2009-11-24T01:19:00.000+08:00

okkies decided to like open my blog.

and write those private stuff on another blog ;D

easier this way ;D

okkies picture from chalet will be uploaded soon

and picture when i was in malaysia will folo shortly

2009-11-20T02:28:00.000+08:00

Je laisse tout au destin et le destin.

Merci d'être doux jusqu'à la fin.

Je vais vous laisser partir maintenant.

Locked vous dans une place spéciale dans mon cœur.

Je vous souhaite le bonheur que vous méritez.

Le bonheur que je ne pourrai jamais donner.

Parce que Je t'aime.

2009-11-20T01:53:00.000+08:00

went down to meet jie ;D
bought the things for sat bbq
super last min can~

gonna be cooking for jie to eat

first time i cooking for someone *shyshy*
anyway i was so bored this is what i did..

okkies if yr thinking i am mad smoking 2 sticks at once yr wrong!!!
i was just testing which one lao hong
and apparently both packs were smokeable ._.
so that was how i ended up 2 sticks at hand

2009-11-19T16:11:00.000+08:00

qinaide lemme listen to a song..

struck me with a question for myself

if i where in that situation who would i choose

the one who is undeniably good to me

or the one has left me before but my love has never faded...

i would choose the one who will forever be there by me

the one who will be good to me at all cost..

because i am a coward ;D

the link to the song

www.youtube.com/watch?v=bSXJ6SHcJMs

and 2 other very nice songs

www.youtube.com/watch?v=wVZpsx7ChaQ

www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xig3iMMOAfE&feature=related

2009-11-17T13:47:00.000+08:00

i have the urge to just cut my hair short..

currently taking a break from last min mugging

i should really kick this bad habit
but like they sat it is easier said then done ;D

i m so looking forward to friday

3 days of break from staring at the screen

what i so need right now

3 days of getting myself back together

i m so loving it ;D

something simple ;D

2009-11-17T02:11:00.000+08:00

Fake & Real ain't they just a part of you

Don't end up like me

Cause i no longer know which is the real me ;D

that feeling is coming back again
i want it gone out of my life
it is affecting me so bad

2009-11-16T04:34:00.001+08:00

been a rather unpleasant week

really hope all of this gloominess is gone with a good nights sleep

and i mean one with out nightmares!

2009-11-15T22:11:00.000+08:00

my cute cousin fat fat ~

me and sis ;D

look at my sis retarded face HAHAHAHA! she is gonna kill me if she sees this
;D cutiie
i swear she is heavy!!!
but super cute as well x3 and the red wine at the back~ that was mine in the end hahahaha

2009-11-15T04:15:00.001+08:00

nothing is going right for me

why be a good girl when you still get fked for everything you do

ever decision you make

might as well live the high life and die early no?

2009-11-14T06:36:00.000+08:00

alot of crazy crap going about my mind today..

some are just too heartbreaking

some just makes me feel like a fool

when did i started becoming some one who has locked away the root of all her emotions?

it all feels like the worst nightmare i am having

those painful memories i would rather do without

the you if i had a choice would choose nvr to have met

those days i choose rather to have never been thru

the short moment of happiness was all a facade

all that came afterwards was a life of hell

the choice you made..

you rather lie and made me the sacrifice

it has been so long and yet remembering it still makes the hurt so raw..

lets just blame being emotional on alcohol intake

i will be back to the happy-go-lucky girl right after this

because you are not worth it

not a single bit of it

yeah i am saying that when i am actually being super emotional right now

god i sure suck big time at convincing myself about something even the blind can see

2009-11-14T03:13:00.000+08:00

back from Shir's birthday celebration..

will blog and upload the pictures tomorrow

2009-11-12T02:11:00.000+08:00

having a stupid exam tomorrow

that means studying the whole of tmr till 4pm

hope i will be able to even wake up to do that..

met up jie today..

went down to eunos to fetch her

in the end i was the one who needed fetching

got lost again..

i can feel my driving license drifting furthur away from me D;

cabbed back to her house

dinner and down to the void deck for our usual chatting session

and because of her i am so into MARLBORO ICE BLAST!

taste like peppermint ;D

maybe this time i will be able to quit smoking slooowwwwwlllyyyy....

my eyes are currently half closed

think i am gonna fall asleep infront of the com soon

the love you deserve is not the love i am worthy of..

how true can a sentence get..

2009-11-11T01:26:00.000+08:00

feeling super hungry at the moment

and damn all my mind can think about is food and more food

had chocolates for lunch..

fries for dinner..

currently thinking of what i wanna have for supper..

biscuits <3

i have such "HEALTHY" meals

it is a miracle if i get to lose any weight

currently craving for bedok 85 ba chor mee!!!

more chilli please ;D

2009-11-09T21:56:00.000+08:00

i feel like crying myself to sleep tonight

the urge to cry is too strong

i been breaking down repeatedly the pass few weeks

with no fucking reason at all

what is wrong with me

what is it with this empty feeling in me

i am tired yet i cant get to sleep

someone please slap my senses back into me

2009-11-09T19:40:00.000+08:00

changed back to blogger.

it is still the best after all.

been rather moody lately.

guess it is just the weather affecting me?

think it is time i started settling some of my problems.

firstly the major one which i am just to guilty to face.

god i am such a coward!!

been having chills running down my spin lately

maybe its all the guilt killing me..

o god how did i ever end up in this big mess!!